The wait in Istanbul

The flight from Moscow to Istanbul was more than two hours delayed but it didn't really matter much. My flight to Singapore was only 21:45 and we arrived 17:30. I had plenty of time to sort my feelings out (or at least part of them), walk around the airport trying to find some nice spices and exchange some SMSs with Yulia.

I was in a grumpy mood and told her that. What I didn't tell her is that she was partially responsible for such mood. Well, not directly - I must say - but indirectly, it was the fact she didn't seem to miss me as much as l missed her that got me upset. Again, not only that but that too.

I started again thinking about the "Mr. Nice Guy" thing. I believe I mentioned this before. Yeah... I think I did. Girls don't like good guys. Good guys are not the 'alpha male'. They all want to find a romantic type, polite and educated, that will treat them as princesses... However, they just can't resist the 'bad guys'. The ones that do not call the day after, the ones that keep them on their toes not knowing whether they are cheating on them or not.

I am the nice guy. Looking for everlasting love. Before Yulia knew that she would SMS me all the time. Now that I have showered her with kisses, caresses and promises of sweet long lasting love, she feels safe. She knows I love her. There's no need to always keep me near, after all "I am hers already".

So she apologised for not replying. She was a bit busy. Please don't get me wrong. As I said before, I do not expect her to be available all the time for me. I cannot do the same for her either. But things changed. They are different. Is this the beginning of our problems? Will she become just like Juliana? Contacting me will cease to be a voluntary action to become a mandatory annoyance? Is it me the one to blame? Am I suffocating them with my constant need for attention? Is it wrong to expect this attention from them when I am all attention to them?

Well, if I am suffocating Yulia, I don't want to do that... So I sent a quick message to say the plane had arrived, that I missed her, that I loved her and that I would SMS again when I arrived in Bangkok. After that I switched off my phone and did not wait for a reply. I'm sure she said something but I didn't want to see it. I'll check in Bangkok, ten hours from now...