Time for an update

I haven't been posting, I know... So much has happened I don't even know where to begin. Let's see... Perhaps it would be easier if I just mentioned thing as they come to mind. Hmmm... Yes. Let's do that.

I was forced to put some distance between Noor and I. I was feeling pressured by her constant presence and need for attention. Mental note to myself: do not be like that. It is really annoying!

Lin decided not to let go of our friendship. She ignored me for a while but I guess she realized that, though I'm a jerk and undoubtedly not her 'dream partner', I'm still worth keeping as a friend. So she calls and sends messages now and them. I like it like that. I take it as a sign of friendship evolving. And I admire her, so I also think she is worthwhile. Seems we came to a mutual understanding. Good.

J called and wanted to come back. Of course... I saw it coming. She said she's got a boyfriend she doesn't love because she can't get over me. Sweet? Yes. True? I don't think so. We talked and agreed she should think a bit more about it. Then she called again, said she broke up with the boyfriend but started having second thoughts afterwards. That says it all, doesn't it?

Koi decided she doesn't want to loose me. We've been apart for a while now and the distance between us grew a lot. It seems she decided to 'keep the flame burning' by fighting her own cultural restraints and acting 'naughty' just to please me. Gotta tell you – it is working! What am I to say? I'm easy!

I asked her - "What happened? Aren’t you shy anymore?" and she said: "No, because you don't like shy girls. If I'm shy, you won't like me!"

I feel bad because I know she's changing her ways in an effort not to loose me. And from my part, I am still skeptical it could work as she is trying to be something she just isn't. But she's not a kid anymore and I have to stop worrying too much about others... She is supposed to know what she is doing.

I've been exchanging emails with four new girls; one Singaporean with Indian background, two Russians (!) and one Latvian (!!!). Is this going to lead anywhere? I don't know. Who can tell?