And life goes on; A series of meaningless events. Sometimes a bit of fun, most of the time just plain boredom. Maybe I shouldn’t be complaining… I mean, I have almost everything I have ever wished for. Almost. Are we ever content? I don’t think so. It’s just human nature, I guess.

With all this SARS (Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome) madness, my travels have been canceled. Even customers are trying to avoid having people from SARS infected regions coming over to their countries and their sites. Would you blame them? Of course not. It doesn’t hurt being careful nowadays. But the fact is, there isn’t much to be done in Singapore. Apart from helping the sales guys in presentations and doing administrative work, nothing much is happening. I should be glad as it gives me a chance to study a bit, rest a bit, enjoy home a bit. BUT I still feel lonely and being home alone brings adventure to Macaulay Culkin only, not me.

I love my apartment. I really do. Friends will tell me it’s too big for me, that I should move to a smaller place, which would be cheaper etc etc etc. But I really love my apartment. The only problem I have with it right now is: it feels empty. No one to talk to, noise and voices only coming from the huge TV set on the living room, a fridge stuffed with fruits and drink, nothing else. And they last weeks.

In the end, I know it’s not the apartment that is empty or too big. It’s my heart.

Let’s see… I have a e-Friend in Romania who says she can come to visit anytime. We talk frequently over the internet. She’s very concerned about my well being and gets worried if I do not show up online for two or three days. But she’s there and I am here. Doesn’t help much and these internet chats are ok but at certain point in time you just get really bored. It’s too ‘impersonal’ no matter how ‘personal’ you get. Then there is the Thai girl. She calls twice a week asking me if I am alright and saying she misses me. I believe she does but I am not really interested. Then, the girls who replied to my personal ad online (oh, you didn’t know I had one? I do!!! But, no, I am not telling where. Seek and thou shall find!). Most of them, however, just want pen pals. And as I said, I am getting bored of all these internet ‘relations’. The one I wanted to write sent me a note saying ‘hang in there, I’ll sent you an email in a couple of days’. That’s the Danish girl with the pretty nose. Not putting much faith on her promise. The Indonesian neighbour, oh man, that is really a problem. But I think I solved it today. I had a rough conversation with her over the phone this morning, was forced to tell her to leave me alone. I hate being rude to people but she just wouldn’t get it!!! I am not her boyfriend. I do not want her to be my girlfriend. And she keeps stalking me, for Christ sakes! Arrgh!

The aftermath is: I still have no one.

Tomorrow, one of the Thai girls is coming to Singapore. I am importing company! How bad is that? Again, I do not believe we will fall deeply in love for each other and live happily ever after, but whatever happens, if she keeps me company for two weeks, that’s good enough for me. I won’t be so bored. Sad, sad, sad…